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...Sunday, 29 March 2009

Yoyo wassup.......

I'm back after a long break,

wasn't feeling so good after last post and I just totally forgot.

Glad to be back, let me start by saying....

I am now liking youtube show "The Skorpion Show".

It is really funny, anyone reading pls pls pls watch.

Just search for skorpion show, and pls subscribe cz

they deserve it.

Yesterday, while I was with MOTHER,

Haily wanted to meet up, so I told him

it would have to be at Orchard cz I was staying with

me mom cz well she came down to visit........

So we first caught up at Heeren where Lee(Haily)

wanted to show me some bags, clothes, shoes and stuff.

Saw some pretty cool stuff, and note that me and mom

already separated after meeting Lee.

after Heeren, we went on to Scape for a sec, then on to

Cineleisure and to the Lan area to watch ppl play,

and turns out there was the FIFA online tournament.

And then! we went to Wisma Atria for Starbucks,

Hung out there till' like 6 so then b4 Lee goin back,

I brought him over to see Orchard Park Suites(Mom's).

Give him a lil' taste of class yea know what I mean...

So after the tour he left......

Ok, abt OPS(orchard park suites)...

This time, my mom got sent to the studio loft,

now I ain't jokin, that shit was HAWT, if you were single.

Something a fresh playa would get....

Well, ntg else on my mind right now.

So I'll end this with some pics over the weekend.

He looks like T.I with that beanie,

I fixed it for him.

- B-Boy rocks my live...# ;

...Thursday, 19 March 2009

Hey,
I got really pissed today, slightly worst than last time,
was really on the edge today, I apologize to Zarrah, I'm sry,
I really don't know who to go to.... Nobody is here with me,
even on msn, it's not good enough, I thought i could depend on him.
I guess otherwise.......
I honestly think I'm goin tru major depression, no lie,
I wish I didn't have to so called admit it, but I'm just being honest.
I can't believe it's this bad, no matter who I talk to I can't seem to feel
better or even try to feel better, I want to end it so bad,
I don't want suiside, but I just want me to end so I don't hurt no more,
you might say it's selfish but heck, you would say the say being in
my shoes.

It's so bad, all I can think of is blaming God,
cz I believed that everything is controlled by him,
I honestly dun wanna blame him but I honestly
don't know which name to blame.....
I try to believe that he is preparing me for sumthing or makin me
stronger but this is too much........ It hurts so bad.......
I have calmed down, but still feel numb....
I got so much on my hands, this is just killin me more,
I got skl to catch up on, dance to practice, music to produce,
son to be, life to live........

What really triggered me was my dad gettin upset with me again,
I just love him so much I get alot of guilt from him real easy.
I got dance to practice, my body is in so bad condition,
muscles aching , I got especially skl to catch up on, mostly MATH!
and music? Whole diff story. All I ask for was that one person,
to make feel real and to bring me up when I'm down, that one
I can be with all my life.
I actually found one,
but it was blown down, easier than blowing a stack of feathers...
Just like that it was gone?
How deep do you wanna stab that knife?

"I Gave You Ma Whole Life ,
I Turned It To My Life,
No Money And No Price,
Can Match What I Sacrafice..
And You Repayin' Me By Playin' Me,
Tellin Me Your Sorry For All The Times You Lied,
Baby Your Unfaithful,
Now Im Truly Grateful,
Here Is My Goodbye...
Can You Feel Me Dying."

P'n'L
-IL-

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...Tuesday, 17 March 2009

Heylo...
yes, as you all know,
I have the tendency to always write after midnight,
c'mon guys, I can't help myself....
So, whatever I'm writing abt right now is abt yesterday.
No, 16 of March.
Ok well, first of all, gotta start out by sayin Happy Birathday!!!
to my dear sister, Maria Xandria Morden, yes she's 15 and single.
And to my awful surprise, it turned out to my room-mates
birthday too.... So props for him...

Ok, so,
Um, I've come to mind that I've actually been out
every time I get a day off,
like every single weekend holiday or anything else, even e-learning.
I really need a break......
Tmr, I'm goin out, AGAIN, to watch a movie with the guys
I can't seem to say no... Just like my dad I guess....
Well on the way back or sumthin, I'd figure I would get Rou Shun
A gift(my room-mate).
Maybe like a game or sumthin...
And also, I realized that I have to go Serangoon JC on Wed for M&D,
God, thats sounds deadly punishing.
I really seem to be having mood swings lately,
I get quite worked up easily over stupid things....
I hope what I've been tru is having me making the right decision,
It's her or nothing.......
I can;t believe I gotta wake up at 9 tmr,
thats mad, and what time isit now?
I hope I make it, "yesterday" i went to see Keshia for the last time,
since she'll be leaving for London for good,
I'm proud of her and glad for her
cz I know London is a awesome place to be....

In-fact I didn"t feeling like goin out as i said
but i felt it wouldn't be right, It's the last time and for a long time..
But then, i think I got a lil' reward, I received 100$ from her parents,
cz they knew it was a lil' troublesome from Bradell
ALL the way down to Harbour Front, VivoCity.
But then again, when I came home I found out that it was Rou Shun's
birthday so i guess that money was to buy Rou Shun something.....
I really need my guardian angel right now, I really need to seriously
get my mind straight, I really am not sure what are my priority if you
would say so...... Brendan, if you're out there pls contact me,
I dun feel like speaking on msn but in person, or some other way.
Or Lord, in my sleep can you pls send someone to help me get
my mind straight..... If I understand it, I will follow it tru-out.

P'n'L
-IL-

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...Friday, 13 March 2009

Ok! Hey wassup!
To reenact this situation, you need to read this really fast...
Cz my goal in this post is to make it b4 midnite and i only have
6 minutes left.....
SO!
today wasn't so bad, did ntg much, took a bus home with Vic,
He came hang int he house a while.... Had some fun and laughs.
Um um um,
O and on the way back, tried to chill Vic down,
he abit stressin and i got him to just loosen up by singing
our fav songs like a drunk ass.......
And believe me he picked it up well...
4 Minutes!
O I love everybody,
-My bro's
-My Sista's
to name some
-Morden Family
-Craig
-Ezy
-Li ying
and many many more!
2minutes!!!!!
gonna call goonting now!

P'n'L
-IL-

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...Thursday, 12 March 2009

YO Hairy People!
Put your hands in the air,
and stink up the whole place like you just don't care.
Ok ok, serious now,
I totally forgot abt my blog?! I know, not surprised...
Ok, first of all, I would totally like to start with goin out
with Victor to St. Andrews JC "alot like jazz" concert!
Aunty Hwee Cher got me those ticks, it seems that,
aunty's brother worked at SAJC and got free ticks to the show!
So i had two ticks to this show, and i had to bring someone,
at first i thought of asking Kai Xin, but then she was busy with tuition...
so wth i asked Victor, good friend of mine....
So well he wasn't interested at first but I convinced him,
the show was at 7:30 p.m at VICTORIA Concert Hall! cool name.
So we met at around 6 p.m at a bus stop made our way to
Bishan MRT, then took the train to City Hall, walked all the way to Victoria.
Wasn't that far.... But anyway, it was quite an cool concert but to
Victor??? Yea, no chance ever again.... But we had fun doin other stuff so.
Now, I'm gonna let the pictures tell the rest.........

O and um, this is not Victoria, It's the Parliament.....

OK!
Moving on.....
um um um well next day just went to Haily's house to play PS3...
Mmmmm cool........
Came home, did ntg till like abt shit late or early in the morning.
i also realise the following morning I had eye bags and really really
had a bad time waking up......
Like maybe right now would be an example.

Now I think I'll be movin on to today......
Ok well today is a thursday, o wait oops i mean yesterday...
yesterday was a thursday, yes i had M&D.....
I actually thought i could skip abit cz my class had Chem Practical
but then teacher had and last minute call from the office
and the whole thing got cancelled b4 we even started and like
I JUST GOT THERE WHEN HE SAID HE HAD TO GO!
So after that i dragged my sry ass to M&D....
well honestly it was ok, not too bad today.
But but but, found out today that I'll be performing
along with the WHOLE M&D at the AYG(Asian Youth Games)
for the opening ceremony......
Also found out that there are total of 5 skl's performing
and over 500 to 600 students dancing....
That is CRAZY and two "skls" are actually JCs(junior college)....

Well full of mix emotions and up and downs abt this AYG.....
so many things are goin on and my mind is really fucked up...
I mean I was thinkin of a homemade music video,
art class is gonna bomb the skl, getting in a band, studies,
and just getting a chance to do what I love and live doin....

Wow wow wow.....
So many things.... So little time.....
I'm not really sure whatelse to say,
O and Zarrah my beloved sis wants to be on my blog so,
here you go -ZARRAH MARIE MORDEN-
you're officially on my blog........
Lastly, my bro Craig one night just came up to me on msn
and just like typed out the most amazing lines ever....
he said
"its worth tryin..if not u wouldnt b aniwhere now if u hadn't tried..."
Now thats magic, i will always remember these lines...... God Bless bro.

P'n'L
-IL-

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...Wednesday, 4 March 2009

Hey Sup,
Um, I feelin slightly better but only away from the sight of her,
cz I just realise that seeing her can do things to me,
not very good things......
Well I thought I was ok haven't been sheddin from my eyes,
until the bubble popped on my screen......
My whole body just broke down to pieces,
It was just faster than you can say half half a three letter word.
Like, you trying to say "one" then you're like "ON" then BAM!
I shatter.......

I'm trying my best to stay alive,
trying my best to pick myself up after shattering......
Spoke to Bro B today,
helped me abit.
Skl? Damn I'm dying in skl man, can't keep up,
but I'm really pushin myself to do it even though it ain't really
effective.... hehe, you know me........

And um, O, in love with QUEST CREW from ABDC,
they gonna win this season fo sho....
and and and...... HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my loving sista LI-YING!
luv yea girl, keep rockin! sry for not wishin you on your b'day,
wasn't feeling so good.....
I think you can tell.....
mind currently distracted, so i'mma update much more next time.
LAYTA!
p.s - I know Li-Ying you readin this right now, and i DARE to you
to scream "B-Boy IL is the ILLEST!!!" HAHA

P'n'L
-IL-

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...Sunday, 1 March 2009

Fuck It!
I can't think no more,
I can't do this anymore,
this is the last I'm doin this.
I ain't gettin hurt no more,
not like this.....
This is fucking bull shit!
I gave everyone everything!!
WTF did i get back!
being used, being cheated on,
being miss treated, and fuck that even 10% of what I've been through!

Fuck life! Is all this worth livin for?! I'm done with this.
You all can fucking suck on my dick for all I care!
You made me this way and I'm gonna give it to yea!
I'm 15 for God's sake! WTF you expect from me!
This just ain't abt you!
Almost everyone I know in life gave me shit!
How the hell you want me to make lemonade out of that!
I didn't ask for this!
And LORD why the fuck are you doin this to me!??
I stayed loyal to you, respected you! WTF you want from me!
I thought when you sent him, it was like a guardian angel,
now he's fucking with someone else!

Fuck This, Fuck Life, Fuck The Free World, Fuck Everything!
Fuck IT
-IL-

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