Love B-Boy

...Monday, 20 April 2009

Hey wassup ppl,
alot has happened lately, really amazed by What happened. How did it happened.
Why did it happened. I just can't think straight, as always, I probably can will,
I just need time, not time that will have break in it. Time like a whole weekend
to think, things just feel so messed up, boy will I have alot of white hair.

Let me first start by saying I lost my phone, I didn't actually loose it,
It dropped out of my pants while I was out with Vic.
Then for this weekend i was out the whole time, with vic,
but first with dad, glad to see father again, Love him.
later after spending time with pap, I was with for dinner,
decided to treat him.
Well I just randomly said lets go somewhere far like orchard.
And to my shock, Vic actually wanted to go, so we went to Orchard.
Went to Heeren and Cineleisure first at Heeren in HMV,
then Cineleisure 9th floor.
When we were at ninth floor, I kinda had an urge to play video games.
So..... we played Xbox, and well when did we start playing? at 10p.m.
Vic was kinda scared of being late but I was abit selfish I guess.
so we played anyway, by the time we finished, Vic was late(obviously).
And he had that rushy mood goin on and I just told him to relax,
by the time we reached AMK, we were just able to catch the last bus, luckily.
We made it home by around 12,
we survived but things wasn't as smooth i guess.
But it was at cineleisure that it all changed, by the time i reached home,
I have realized that I don't have my phone, yeap you guessed it.

Then today, asked Vic to go back with me to check if they still have it,
and to be damned they didn't have it......... was I upset?
Yea, but I thought, well, it happens. So well to get over it,
me and Vic played Xbox, Again!
And he told me he wanted to go back by 7 p.m so I thought yea we have
plenty of time, so we played our asses off, and after that it was kinda early,
So we ate.And then went to Kinokuniya for Music Scores.
And guess again, we were late! AGAIN!
and this time it got serious, Vic acted up again, couldn't blame him,
he was suppose to get food for the family.

That's not only what's been got me thinkin, I've been thinkin abt her I guess....
And just generally Love, I guess i understand why they say
"God is Love & Love Is God" Love is just so complicated,
trying to fully understand Love is like trying to understand God,
and that's impossible. I know I promised you God, and I'm keeping it,
but like what B said, if it's really meant to be,
I hope you'll be there to show me it is.
The song that really brings me to all this thinkin and inspiration for this post is,
Sara Bareilles & Ingrid Michaelson - Winter Song .
It is so deep for me. It's not just the words, it's everything!
It's every single instrument, chord, melody, flow, notation and sound of the song.
It's bcz of this song that tonight or morning that I am not sleeping,
but just dwelling, a lil' bit the past but dwelling more abt what is the meaning
behind EVERYTHING!
Everything that I've been through, everything that I've done,
everything I'm put here to do, Everything that surrounds me.
Everything.

This is probably THE most emotional post for me, full of mixed feelings.
BroB, I'm sry, I know I can't depend on you always, but you are always there
to help me clear my mind, to make me see my path, I've tried countless times
to clear it myself but I always made it worst.
I dunno how to do this, I know i should keep my priorities straight,
but these sidetracks sometimes mean much more important to me.
How I feel, defines what I do, how I do it or who I am, what i will be.

Is Love Alive? Chase the Dream not The Competition.....

P'n'L
-IL-

- B-Boy rocks my live...# ;